My grandmothers' country

I will never know or see the country that my grandmothers grew up in as they would see it. I will never understand what it meant for my grandfathers to pick up their families and move them to a new country.
But what I do know is that because of the strength of my grandfathers and the boldness of my grandmothers I am a better person. I have been given so many opportunities and have had a greater calling to return to the country of my heritage and do what I can to make it work.
My family:
Paternal side:
Grandfather Lucien Ceran (deceased)
Grandmother Carmen Ceran
Jacques Ceran
Monique Auguste
Raymonde Ceran
Robert Ceran (Father)
Lucien Ceran Jr.
Marie Sandra Ceran
Lucienne "Lucy" Ceran

Maternal Side:
Grandfather Felix Neptune (deceased)
Grandmother Lilianne Neptune
Frantz Neptune
Gary Neptune (deceased)
Kayhrine Neptune
Regine Neptune (Mother)
Marie Cayo
Carol Neptune

I belong to a rich family, with a history and a richness that I am still piecing together. But there are many things that I don't know. There is much that I can learn from the spirit of my grandmother- Carmen Ceran a woman who has held this family together through the death of her husband, my grandfather. I learn about the type of woman I want to be, the legacy that I want to continue because I learned so much from her and continue to learn a lot from her.
One thing you should know, I am the estranged family member of my maternal side. Long story short, as much as I want to have a connection with them, my journey home is more about me then getting to know them.
I have never been to Haiti, what I know is what I have imagined, what I have read, and what I have seen on tv. But I have never seen it with my own eyes. I am very much excited, scared and proud to be able to go to Haiti after 25 years of wanting. I have always wanted to live a life where I can make a difference in the country and for the country and while I recognize that I don't have to be there in order to make a difference, I know that for myself, if I never even go back again-- This is where I am supposed to be right now.
I can't speak the language, but I know once that plane lands in a few days I will be home and I will be closer to my grandmother than ever before.